I’m just sad. And that doesn’t happen a lot. Most of the time I’m just indifference. Or sad but hide it anyway. Now I’m just plain sad.
It could be contribute to either the fact that I’m in my time of the month or Federer just lost to that bull Nadal. Seriously, the committee is so fucking bias. They obviously turn blind eyes to everything Nadal done wrong. He took a long time for serve, for break, and those medical time-out? Every single players know about his scheme. Obviously not the committee though. Nadal maybe number 1, but he doesn’t deserve it. Rather Djokovic, the lesser of two evil. Or Federer, for the best.
But I’m still sad.
I get snippy at Jerkface. Shouldn’t have do that. But then I start thinking about how he would leave and may forget about me, I just get really down. I will miss him, a lot. Lots and lots. Who will I talk to next year? Who will be there to brighten up my day with his witty repartee and his cynical view? He is a big part of my life. And I’m not showing my blog to him again, in fear of he mocking my emotions or existence. Which he already done.
School.
School is a drag. Nobody is coming anyway, so why bother.
But then, if I stay at home, mom’s going to make me do chores. At least at school I’m going to have free time for myself. Definitely not going to Siham’s class tomorrow. I have suffered for one whole fucking year and I’m not letting her crush my confidence for the very last time. One year is enough. At least I’m escaping from here. I mean, what could she possibly do to me if I skip her class? Give me a F? Please, like that’s going to stop me. Beside, I doubt anyone is going to her anyway.
And there is Ms. Nat.
I really don’t want her to go. Just like Jerkface. She, aside from him, is the only who is willing to listen to my inane chattering. And they are leaving me behind with Jerk.
Jerkface is annoying, but he has that charismatic character, that charm in him that make his annoying side bearable. And that brilliance. He really is the love child of Adonis and House. Jerk on the other hand, just plain old annoying, to the level that I feel like punching him every time I see him.
But I’m sad. And still am.
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Goodbye, to blueberry pies…